Today is Mother’s Day. If I were being totally honest, I’d admit that I’m not overly excited about it this year. Partially because I had hoped we’d be farther along in our journey to parenthood. But . . . I know it is a long, hard process, and there’s so much we’ve got ahead of [...]
No one else needs to know
“No one else needs to know.” This is what my mother-in-law said to me when I confessed my anxiety towards telling the rest of our family, especially the more conservative ones, about the process we’re taking to try to get pregnant. Because last week I got a phone call with the preliminary results from my [...]
In Here
In Here There is warmth - pinks and reds, folds and crevices, organic blankets, swaddle and soothe, layers of lover’s bonds. Secret hopes are whispered here, praying for imagination’s morph to perfection. Listen closely; rhythm tells your story long before the words are engraved on the walls. I wait for you. Written 4/26/10 [...]
We're Getting There
After three long months of unanswered voicemails, i got a call from my genetic/fertility counselor last week. I was hoping for an update of any sort, really, but was surprised with news. Really great news. Some rule or guideline has changed, making the genetic testing I need in order to move forward with getting pregnant [...]
128
128. It’s taken months of stress and change. I’ve cried and screamed and despaired. 128. My blood sugar number. In November, my blood sugars were a steady 350, if not higher. “Healthy” range is 90-130 (before meals). It may be by the skin of my teeth, but I’m there. I need to be able to [...]
A Secret Message
After the funeral, we congregated at Scott and Rhonda’s house, drying tears with stories from happier times and filling the void we all felt with fried chicken, green beans and ham. As if sitting through your mother’s memorial service isn’t stressful enough on a seven-year-old boy, G-man clearly had reached his limit as the living [...]
What we know so far
Yesterday’s meeting with the genetics counselor was a lot more positive than the cardiologist visit. No panic attacks, no IV’s, no boobs hanging out of a hospital gown. (sorry hubs) Beyond getting a little taste of the sticker-shock from how expensive the whole process is, and learning that it’s possible my insurance won’t cover jack [...]
Poked and Prodded
Yesterday, my nerves got so bad driving up to the cardiologist that I found myself unable to keep it together. More than once I had to fend off the tears, which were coming without rhyme or reason. I had a sour stomach most of the night too, which really sucked. The first test was an [...]
Nervous
Today is a pretty intense day for me. Today is my appointment for the cardiology tests to see if my heart is healthy and capable of handling a pregnancy. Since I have a disease that affects the muscles and since my dad died from congestive heart failure, my doctors want to make sure my heart [...]
Our long journey begins
There was only one thing on my mind at my yearly Muscular Dystrophy appointment. For the past three years, we’ve asked about it in casual and broad terms. But this time we were prepared with focused questions and the need of a game plan. We started talking about pregnancy. To quote one of MTV’s newest [...]
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